What are you afraid of?

What is it that drives us?
What keeps us going?
What do we strive for?
What do we long for?
What do we dream of?
And is a dream something that is more like a goal or is it, by (I think) definition, something unreal, something perhaps achievable but something beyond what we can foresee? For, to me, a dream is, by definition, an un-reality - just part of the subconscious. But that gets into a debate on the function of our mind. And then onto the physical boundaries and limits of the human mind. Or perhaps a better box would be the human brain... I diverse...

What are you afraid of?
What are you willing to give up, to sacrifice, to risk, in order to go somewhere in life? And where is that somewhere? And is it worth it?

Does fear drive you?
Does love drive you?

Are fears and insecurities the same thing?
Is there an umbrella 'fear'?
I would like to suggest that there is - it is the fear of the unknown. This fear feeds the fear of consequences; the fear of rejection; the fear of failure. It gives birth to the little insecurities that help govern our everyday life. 'Do I push through the orange light or brake hard and stop at the red?' 'Do I speak up and say what is on my mind, or keep quiet and let someone else do the speaking?' 'Do I make a decision that leads to a minor change, which may then have a domino effect, resulting in a major change?'
It's speculation. It's the 'what if?' the 'but...' It's the indecisiveness ("maybe I'm indecisive").
It breeds regret. It harvests self-pity and weighs down self-esteem.

Why are we afraid?
What do we have to be afraid of?
Are we happy where we are, what we are doing and don't want change? Change is inevitable. (Resistance is futile.)

WHY?

Why do we ask questions we do not know the answers to?
Why do we ask questions we do not want an answer to?
Why do we ask questions when we know an answer does not exist?
Why do we ask questions at all?


"Where does it come from? This quest - this need to solve life's mysteries when the simplest of questions can never be answered? Why are we here? What is the soul? Why do we dream? Perhaps we'd be better off not looking at all. Not delving. Not yearning. That's not human nature. Not the human heart. That is not why we are here." ~ Heroes Season 1 Episode 1

Is it merely human nature?
Just our inquisitive minds?
And does not knowing, not wanting, or knowing an answer does not exist dispell the need or relevance of a question?

What are you afraid of?
It's just a question.

Dilemma

The heartbeat races faster
As it grows closer to the time
The headache proves the tension
Between my heart and mind

Blood rises to the surface
Whenever you're around
Your audience is captivated
They needn't make a sound

So naive to the perceptions
Of the world beyond my own
The ink acts as a reminder
That's why I sing this song

This is my dilemma
Why I cannot make a choice
Between the options laid before me
So I'm singing through the noise

The empty bottle on the table
Beckons just one more
The tunes play through the iPod
"Take me on the floor"

So naive to the perceptions
Of the world beyond my own
The ink acts as a reminder
That's why I sing this song

This is my dilemma
Why I cannot make a choice
Between the options laid before me
So I'm singing through the noise


original lyrics 2008 bricrane