Come Fly With Me

Profound thought for today... well, i guess it was yesterday now (I pulled an all-nighter rather than get a couple hours sleep, when i doubt i would have been able to sleep anyway):

There are (undoubtably) more Gamers in their mid-20s (or older) than amateur singers. I should give more credit to my brother.

This isn't the direction I originally saw this going but, Ian, this blog goes out to you.

I'm heading to America today. It'll be my first time overseas, or really anywhere, by myself. How many times has my brother done that?

This is the first blog I've written in maybe 4/5 months. I was reading over my last blog yesterday and I realised that, yes, I still believe what I wrote, but I think I am in a better place now where I can grasp more the ups and downs. What I now know about myself is, I am not a risk-taker. I like the familiar. I like what I know, even if it isn't preferable. I get into habits easily, both good and bad. And I have a fear of rejection (apparently). I said it once before here and I think it still applies: I have a fear of the unknown, which can manifest in various forms (doesn't everyone?!). So, I guess I do have a fear of rejection, but (thankfully) I deal with rejections very well. Ian, Ian doesn't seem to have my fears...
He's bold - I'm a coward.
He takes risks (however stupid they may seem to me) - I do not.
He believes in himself - I do not.

Ian, right here right now I want to say this: I believe in you. (You will make a great gamer, once you score your dream job!)

And so, in 4.5hours my plane will be leaving the tar matt and then soaring over the Pacific Ocean - I'll effectively be leaving Australia behind for 4 weeks. The question is, can I also leave those fears and insecurities and disbeliefs behind as well? Maybe I can. But when I return in August will they infest me again or, like a virus, will they die without me to sustain them? And, is that what I want, or are they just a part of who I am - of what makes Bri, Bri? Do I want to, CAN I leave them behind, now or ever? I guess only time will tell...